rogol dan liwat

rogol dan liwat

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Walaupun hari tu cakap yang dah merdeka, sebenarnya nak sedapkan hati. Kenapa? sebab ada satu azab, ada perbicaraan kes criminal. Waktu undi beberapa minggu lepas, we were so lucky to get gang rape case, so haruslah mula menonton porno agar mendapat inspirasi.

Maybe because I'm used to doing so many things, this time around things don't feel tough anymore, I secretly enjoy preparing all the documents and investigation papers. The best moment has got to be preparing the photos of the crime scene. Semerbak dengan darah-darah dan air mani merata.

Bila ambil gambar, tetiba fefeling Dsquared Fall 2010. Berdarah dara, memancut.

 Eh?

Berkabung in Pink

Berkabung in Pink

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"If one does not meroyan when one lives this life, one is a spiderman"

Hello. Akhirnya tamat sudah semester satu kehidupan penuh pancaroba. I dont't abhor the things that I learn but the facts that it is a 13 subjects within 4 months course, with combination of hands-on works and studies could make a nun swears. I told myself during the early days of the course,

"rizal, jangan kau tangisi sesuatu pekerjaan, kau senyum dan bertindak dengan penuh kebengongan dan apabila sesuatu dugaan datang kau dansa bersama rakan,"

Sememangnya kelaut. Dengan kepenatan dan tekanan 24 jam dan 7 hari seminggu, aku memanglah jadi extraordinary emotional, sambil fikir test civil procedure code menyajikan halwa telinga dengan lagu Destiny's Child bertajuk Emotion, lepas tu terfeeling lebih, meleleh air mata sebab teringat dalam videoclip mama dia meninggal. Tah dimana connection antara Civil dan mama dia. Aku memandu kereta sambil mennagis teresak-esak.

Boleh?

Paling penting, aku sememangnya tampak selekeh, busuk dan tidak bertamadun serba sedikit. Bila ada yang kenal menegur ku,

"rizalyaakub kan? homaiblog?"

rasa macam nak jawab,

"Eh, taklah Hamdan Jailani, I mean Lee Kum Kee, from the Tanah Besar, you know?"

I seriously need colors in my life, bila setiap hari pakai hitam putih, macam setiap hari berkabung kematian, Michael Jackson, tambah Whitney dan Amy Winehouse. Sumpah bila kerja nanti, pagi pakai hitam putih, malam nak pakai semua warna sekaligus, nak jadi pelangi.

By the way, sekarang dah tak percaya kepada pencuci muka, setiap hari tenyeh muka dengan mask beras, sebab nak beli SKII tak mampu. Kalau jalan-jalan lapar boleh kunyah serpihan-serpihan beras pada rambut. 

Winter Colour

Winter Colour

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Winter has produced some beautiful blue-sky days for us lately, and today was no exception.  This stunning unedited colour (taken with the trusty iphone4) shows where this variety of leucadendron gets its name - the Safari Sunset.  As they begin to flower, the red bracts around the flower presenter change to yellow and you can see this starting to happen here.  Flowers sold at this stage are often called Tri-Colour Leucadendrons, because they turn from red to pink to yellow, like a sunset.  And with that wonderful blue backdrop, they are particularly stunning!

This leucadendron is of the variety that I most recently wrote about in Lovely Leucos part 3.  If you want to compare the colour change, click on the link.  A few short weeks ago, these Red Gem leucadendrons were a bronzey red.  Now as they start to flower, they become a warm clear yellow, with red tips.  This bright yellow will last until the flowers and pollen presenters have done their work, and then the bracts will close around the centre again and return to being red.  

Leucadendrons are such a colourful cheery plant to be growing in winter.  And at every season they provide different colour.  I'm so happy to be growing them!

Photos Around the Farm

Photos Around the Farm

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I love to take photos.  I thought I'd share some of the ones I've taken lately around the farm  These first two are of an area that has been planted out in the last 12 months.  Although it looks a bit like a bunch of headstones in a graveyard, give it a couple of years and they'll be rows of productive large shrubs.  It's a very satisfying thought!  

We get a great view of Mt Wellington in the distance from this point in the plantation.

A couple of days ago I got my first ever photo (in focus, that is!!) of this wonderful Wattle Bird.  We have so many of them around the farm.  They have a very distinctive birdcall - not what you'd call pleasant, but distinctive.  And despite being quite large (maybe 40cm long) they are hard to catch on camera.  They love sitting in the Silver Tree (Leucadendron Argenteum).  They are called Wattle Birds after those dangly yellow "wattles" that hang below the eye, not as you would expect, because they like wattle!

A beautiful Silver Tree seed pod on a female tree.  

To people that I care.

To people that I care.

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"It perfectly fine to cry or to ask for help, it is not a sign of weakness, it is OK to be human, needing love and support"

Lama sudah tidak menulis.

I know to be writing this a day before a final exam paper is absurd, tapi sometimes to let it out is good, no? This few months have been the toughest months for me, and I'm sure for many of my friends. It been gruesome week after week, to the extend you barely breathe, and the fact that your extraordinary effort does not translate into papers, it is just quite frustrating. 

I don't blame anyone not even myself, I've been doing major, I know I have put all my effort into it, and perhaps god has some other surprises waiting at the end of this. I do not know. People cry and look so tense everyday, it feels like I'm dealing with aftermath from a major war. I myself have acted like a total whore sometimes, i guess if you are tired, not enough sleep and knowing that so many things await you, it gets to your nerves, hence the meltdown.

Nothing is clear in life. Everything goes at fast pace around you, sometimes you do not know what you are missing in life. Your best-friend crying for help, your parents think that they are losing you. Freeze your time, look around, appreciate every opportunity you have to say thank you, and ask how are you? it might be the last time you say that.

But today, I'm standing even stronger, I feel like a new person, a new person I did not think exist in myself. I know I have done many stupid things along the way, to whomsoever affected by whatever I do, I am sorry.

New Plants

New Plants

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I'm very excited about the arrival today of our new batch of plants.  As I've mentioned recently, winter is a great time for planting at Swallows Nest.  Last year we put in around 200 new plants.  This year, we're being very restrained - only 36!  But when they arrived today, I was so surprised by the size of them.  They were much larger and more advanced than I expected.  I can even see the beginnings of flowers on some stems, long enough to pick if and when they form properly.  I have been chasing these plants for a few years now, so there is an extra excitement at having finally been able to source some!

So what are they?  They are a type of Brunia which I have written about before.  We planted some new  Brunia last year - Brunia Albiflora which have a white flower.  These new plants are called Brunia Stokoei.  Absoloutely stunning cut flowers on long stems with beautiful architectural silvery spheres that have tiny rings of flowers - in this case pink.

We ordered the plants from a nursery in Victoria, and the horticultural transport company that brought them across Bass Strait for us wouldn't deliver them to the door, so we had to pick them up.  I'm glad there were only 36 - they were so big that they filled the entire car.  

Notice how soggy the ground is?! Great planting weather! 

This is the beginning of a flower spike, and you can see the balls starting to form.  I'm looking forward to the first flowers!!!  In the meantime, its digging holes and planting.

Please note that the first photo is not mine.  Click here to see its original home!